This week was a no webinar week. I always enjoy these, as I try to normally use this time to spend with Family when there is no webinar…BUT in the same words, I feel that both weeks pass in the time of one week. It is kind of like the webinar is the closing of the door on the last week and then the opening of a new door going in another bright and beautiful direction.
Of course the reason there was no webinar was do to this week being the Super Bowl! 😀 How exciting! I was super excited to watch Tom Brady DO IT AGAIN!!!!! I have never been much of a TV person. I have always seen the life/soul sucking attribute of it. Right after I had moved out, and 2 hours away from home, I can remember calling my to talk to my mom one evening, and she wasn’t paying any attention to anything I was saying because she was to wrapped up in what was on the TV. I called during one of ‘her shows’ and that came across as more important to her then I was. Now is the TV more important to my mother than I am? Absolutely not! But at this point, and on this day; that is how I felt and how it came across to me. It was then I decided that I didn’t like TV. I get very involved with things, and want to know everything, watch every episode, and I just saw the COMPLETE loss of life….of course that being said…I LOVE my hockey! I am a DIE HARD Calgary Flames fan. Wasn’t raised with them (actually Edmonton and Vancouver lol, I learned quickly hehe) but I have cable just so I can watch my hockey, and I do tend to watch the Super Bowl as well. Since you can tell I don’t like the TV to control my life, I almost never watch anything live. I PVR it, and then watch it in the evening or later night when everything I needed to do that day has been completed. It was about 830/9 at night when I sat down to watch the football game…and wouldn’t you know there was an error and it didn’t record even one second of it. it said 5 hours, but nothing there. Not a proud moment. I think EVERY SINGLE old and starving peptide, related or not, got fired up and into overdrive. You know that blind reaction…. 😦 ya not to proud of that reaction. and it took me till the next morning to let go enough to even see what I had allowed to happen. These are the times that really stand out and say to me; who is running my life? Me? The old me? My ghost? or my CONSCIOUS mind! Drawing in everything beautiful that I truly want. For I am EXACTLY where I have put myself, whether I will admit it or not.
Fear is a powerful form of thought. It paralyzes the nerve centers, thus affecting the circulation of the blood. This, in turn, paralyzes the muscular system, so that fear affects the entire being, body, brain and nerve, physical, mental, and muscular. Of course the way to overcome fear is to become conscious of power. What is this mysterious vital force which we call power? We do not know, but then, neither do we know what electricity is.
We all know that fear can be crippling, but do we understand WHY?!? Fear is my number one downfall, or my largest struggle. This is nothing new to me, as Earl Nightingale says we worry ourselves into an early grave. I have spent most of my life focusing on the lack, or the fall short, or the impossible for this to work. I have always looked at the bank account and said I can or cannot do this, and then gotten sad or depressed from said result. Fear is a powerful form of thought. It paralyzes the new centers, thus affecting the circulation of the blood…. What happens if we cut off blood to a limb? or if Blood is blocked from the brain or heart? or if we get a blood clot? All three of these are INCREDIBLY serious medical situation. Yet FEAR alone can PARALYZE the nerve system, which in turn PARALYZES the muscular system!!! FEAR can do more immediate damage to our system then unhealthy eating or lack of exercise, yet NO ONE is talking about FEAR. It is important to stay healthy and exercise, but is it nor SO MUCH BETTER for our health if we starting with the way we think? This was huge for me. I know that fear is crippling to me. I have spent many a times curled up, just crying, trying to figure out HOW something could POSSIBLY work, or how in the world I would come up with the money. I never understood what I was doing to my body, mind and soul. I mean I knew it was bad, and not helpful…but to REALLY understand the detrimental effect on me. Not this does not mean that I have eliminated fear from my life; but I am trying to do my very best to not focus on it, and when I catch myself worrying to try and change my words and thoughts.
In seeking the truth we are seeking ultimate cause; we know that every human experience is an effect; then if we may ascertain the cause, and if we shall find that this cause is one which we can consciously control, the effect or the experience will be within our control also. Human experience will then no longer be the football of fate; a man will not be the child of fortune, but destiny. Fate and fortune will be controlled as readily as a captain controls his ship, or an engineer his train. 19:2-3 -Haanel
We cannot just control our life, we must realize that our life is the result of the effect, we must then understand the effect, for THIS is what we CAN control, our mind; the world withing, CAUSING our life as a result.
In the mental world we find the same law; we speak of knowledge and ignorance, but ignorance is but a lack of knowledge and is therefore found to be simply a word to express the absence of knowledge; it has no principle in itself. In the Moral World we again find the same law; we speak of good and evil, but Good is a reality, something tangible, while Evil is found to be simply a negative condition, the absence of Good. Evil is sometimes thought to be a very real condition, but it has no principle, no vitality, no life; we know this because it can always be destroyed by Good; just as Truth destroys Error and light destroys darkness, so Evil vanishes when Good appears; there is therefore but one principle in the Moral World. 19:7-8 -Haanel
The human tendency is to label or categorize everything, so with all things there are two extremes; knowledge and ignorance, Good and evil… there is no law for the negative, for if the positive or law is in effect there is no need for lack or want. If we have knowledge there is no ignorance, for this is nothing more than the lack of knowledge, but this is the same with all. Nothing is so much defined as evil; as an absence of good or God. With Truth there can be no room for destruction; for truth is the basis of all that is.
You may know that thought constantly, eternally is taking form, is forever seeking expression, or you may not, but the fact remains that if your thought is powerful, constructive, and positive, this will be plainly evident in the state of your health, your business and your environment; if your thought is weak, critical, destructive and negative generally, it will manifest in your body as fear, worry and nervousness, in your finance as lack and limitation, and in discordant conditions in your environment. 19:17 -Haanel
This passage from Haanel really resonated with the fear and paralyzing for me. If your thought is weak, critical, destructive and negative generally, it will manifest in your body as fear, worry, and nervousness, in YOUR FINANCES as lack and limitation, and in discordant conditions in your environment. See for me telling me how things work better for you, has a much harder time getting through to me then this. Ya I can be nice, and I TOTALLY help people; probably more than I help myself out. but it isn’t about being nice or not. FEAR=LACK it isn’t difficult. why can’t I pay my bills? FEAR!!! Back to the HUGE monster that I am letting control my life! Fear doesn’t run itself in my life, I engross myself in it, and allow it to run my life. Remember that I am here because of ME!! My choices and thoughts! What I have let past the watchman at the gate to the world within.